Motivation

When embarking on a project to change yourself, you can expect some resistance. From your body, from your mind, and perhaps even from your peers. You can also expect to have days where you want to give up, to give in the to pressure caused by that resistance, and slip into the old habits you were trying to change. This indies a need for motivation.

Motivation can come in many forms. For me, my motivation for working hard is the end result. The glory and respect I might get from my peers if I achieve the body and the grades and the relationships I desire. It sounds awful, but a part of me wants to be admired. I think this must be true for everyone, at least I hope so or I probably sound like a complete tool right now. Psychologically, all people want to be loved. The motivation behind most everything we do can be boiled down to our natural desire to be loved by others. We long for companionship and acceptance by the community. In my mind, the goals that I have for this year and every year to come will help me reach my ultimate goal of acceptance.

But I suppose I should be more specific. I want my parents to be proud of my grades. I want my friends to be jealous of my body. I want the boy I like to notice me. But I suppose what I even more important than all of that, I want to be proud of myself. I want to actually feel like I've accomplished something this year. And this blog is one way of keeping track of that. So that at the end of the year, or even the month or year, I can look at myself and be proud. That is my motivation.